by Eric Francis
The Sun is now in Pisces for the next few weeks, and Chiron is in Pisces for the next eight years. Chiron in Pisces defines an era of astrology where many will come to terms with the idea, and the reality, of emotional healing. Most of the problems faced by individuals and, when you add that up, by our whole society, come back to unresolved emotional issues. Whether you’re talking about obesity or violence, cancer or depression, the struggles so many face in their relationships, or the crisis children are in, the common thread is a need for emotional wellbeing and maturity. When you consider this theme in the context of your own life, what do you come up with? What do you think is holding you back? If there are issues lurking in the past, they’re not as entrenched as they once were, and not as scary as you once thought. But you’ll need to get underneath the feeling of resistance and find what is there.
Honesty is imperative right now, and so too is managing your emotions. I suggest you ban expressing anger until you’ve cooled off, written in your diary, and/or had a session with your therapist. While I am reluctant to ever suggest you not trust your perceptions, this is an extended moment when you have to check them several times from a diversity of viewpoints. You’re living in an entirely new psychic environment than you were just a few weeks ago, one calling on you to be unusually introspective. In practical terms, that means considering for weeks what you might have thought about for an hour; and it means looking for documentation of the basis of your opinions rather than acting on impulse.
Get to know your inhibitions, so you can address them. I don’t suggest fretting over them, getting caught in them, but emphasizing how much fun you can have if you let them go. You’ve done enough work on this project to appreciate the benefits of having made some space for yourself. You’ve experienced enough in the way of direct, actual, authentic pleasure to motivate you to go the rest of the way. At a certain point you’ll figure out that you’re working through the inhibitions of your ancestors. You’re unlikely at this point to notice that because you’re aware of how much else you have to do. If you focus on what you’ve accomplished, you’ll see that at least half of what you’ve done is throw away or give back issues that were not yours.
You’re embarking on a phase of your life wherein your career goes to the top of the agenda. By this, I mean focus. I mean quitting your bartending job if you’re really an artist, and focusing on acting. I mean that if you’re a songwriter and working as a bicycle messenger, you do something like teach guitar so you have the instrument in your hand more hours a day. I also mean understanding why you must distinguish yourself from people who have less desire to succeed than you do. You have one agenda and they have another, and your sensitivity to their thoughts and feelings will influence your success. You are becoming an influential person, and I suggest you spend your time with people who are creative, optimistic, and authentic.
It sure seems like time for an adventure. Can you get yourself to an ancient site of some kind? You would be surprised how many of those are within a few hours’ drive of home—such as old features in the land, an old monastery, or a temple of some kind. I suggest you travel about 100 miles—not so far that you mix up your schedule or incur too much expense, but far enough to be an overnight mission. I suggest you go on your own; the purpose is introspection, to bring you into deeper contact with your movement through life and your relationship to existence. The presence of anyone else will distract you from contacting the silence in your own mind—which is becoming a few shades more beautiful as the days go by.
You now have some clarity on what may have felt like a betrayal or being deceived in some way. You’re not the type to hold onto things, but your trust can be injured; I suggest you stretch right back into your usual flexibility. Your commitments and the loyalty of others to you goes to an unusual depth for this world, and this is one of your main sources of nourishment. One gift you have is being able to see people for who they are inside, and love them despite the ways they may not love themselves. This is a profound influence on the world around you, and the gifts you give so generously will come back to you if you’re open to receiving them. Focus on that openness and raise everyone’s vibration.
Your relationship life has had an odd feeling in recent years, as if there was nothing you could depend on. Therefore you had to depend on yourself. It’s not that there weren’t interesting people. If anything they were a little too interesting for you. But if they pushed certain buttons, they also taught you to stretch your boundaries and not be so rigid in your perceptions of yourself and of others. Now, you’re ready for a new kind of relationship. I would caution you from embarking on a search for “the one” but rather viewing each person who enters your life on equal terms, at least initially. People you encounter are likely to have something particular in common with you—and help you stretch into yourself in new ways. You may find that it’s the same conversation you’ve been having, but in a new language.
You seem to be taking risks exploring the dialog between the “sexual” and “non-sexual” aspects of yourself. I used quotes mainly because these are aspects of the same thing, a fact you may be discovering. Sexuality implies much more than itself, and at the moment for you is deeply connected to your ideas of what it means to have a home. When the non-sexual side speaks, though, it can imply deeply erotic attributes of your nature, which are sometimes best seen when you filter out overtly erotic feelings. This may all seem like a paradox, though what your astrology implies to me is that you are opening doors to different rooms of your consciousness, and boldly exploring what is there. Each has a feeling all its own. Each reveals something about you.
We have all heard the term “sexual healing” but few people would know where to go looking for it. The first place to go is within yourself, beginning with awareness. Given the repressive nature of society, any conscious exploration into one’s erotic nature qualifies as both a reclaiming and as an experience of healing. One attribute of your current charts speaks of a new kind of interplay between ideas and experience. If the two have been markedly different in the past, such as if your true desire nature has not quite been matched in your experience, now is the time to begin building a bridge. Let your ideas influence your choices, and let your experiences influence your ideas.
Art is a practical matter, and it’s one of the easiest ways to dial into your growth process right now. I am aware that you may be sitting in an office reading this, with no concept of yourself as a “creative person.” I’m speaking to you, not to Picasso. What we think of as the “creative self” is often an attribute of our inner child that we’ve abandoned. When you explore any creative process, no matter how simple or humble your efforts, you begin to awaken this child. Pretty soon, this child is going to come to life with raging passion. I suggest you make some quiet visits into his or her room, and make the awakening gentle. I suggest purple eggs, lemonade, and animal crackers for breakfast, with a side of Play Doh.
You are smarter than you think. You make better decisions than you think, even when you’re under stress. I suggest you make a yoga of trusting that. Practice trusting yourself, your perceptions, and your experiences. This will gradually lead you to trust yourself a little more every day. There’s a reason you have an unusual perception of your own intelligence, which is that you have an unusual kind of intelligence. You tend to proceed from the intuitive to the logical rather than the other way around. Instead of playing a game of second-guess, start with your initial perception and verify it. You will usually be right, and learn a lot more in the process of fact-checking and documentation. But as for how you got there in the first place—well that’s a mystery between you and the universe.
When you open your mouth to speak, what percentage of what you say is actually true? I suggest you monitor this. I’m not saying you need to get down on yourself if you catch yourself in white or black lies, but rather, do a kind of information audit. Fact-check yourself. The thing I suggest you look for is the extent to which what you say is in accordance with your values. That is the real measure of truth. One process that’s about to accelerate in your life is the systematic discovery of what your values are. On the one hand you can be extremely idealistic, and on the other just as cynical about human nature. When you start to parse out that contradiction you will find many shades of faith, fear, and knowledge that will inform you of your true perception of existence. For a while you will have more questions than answers.
You may be filled with the sensation that you’re finally discovering who you are: that your self-perception is coming into focus. At the same time, I trust that you’re feeling less of a certain kind of pressure that may have had you feeling like your life was an exercise in holding your breath under water, wondering if you could breathe the stuff if you had to. Now, you can just simply breathe, and I suggest you do plenty of it. You can also focus on the processes that have, in the past year, taken hold of your desire to be healthier and more emotionally balanced. You learned a lot from being in a position where anything could happen at any time, and living a life where there were no guarantees. Anything can still happen and there are still no guarantees, but you’re in a lot better position to create solutions and explore your opportunities.
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